At this point, I can't help but wonder how many blogs I've started and stopped. There are times when I start one just to have a place to write but then I feel silly and delete them. There have been times when I start one with so many goals in mind and have never followed through. This has been a lifelong pattern of mine ... starting things and never finishing them. Thankfully I am working through this by making realistic goals, taking small steps every week, and saying lots of prayers. I have found that God has been the missing ingredient in almost all of my failed endeavors in the past. At first thought, you may think that I am blaming Him for my failure but it's actually just the opposite. I am blaming myself for not including Him in any of my big decisions. I blame myself for not turning to Him when I have lost the strength to carry on.
I always make a new blog because I like the feeling of a new beginning. You know the cliché all too well, "new year, new you." I'm pretty sure I have even blogged that at some point. But if I can find the strength to follow through with some of the new goals that I have set, I can only imagine how proud I will feel this time next year when I'm actually fit and healthy ... or when I've actually finished another year of college, or whatever!
I really enjoy writing about my weight loss journey. I feel really good when I reflect on what I've done, bad or good, and my progress. It helps me keep my perspective and gives me a place to chat about my frustrations. I also enjoy writing about other things in my life like school, writing, my family, or anything that I find particularly interesting. Sometimes I just miss writing! I have even set out to write a book a during a couple of Nanowrimos and it just never works out. (unrealistic goal for me to be able to complete a book in one month!)
Anyways I can't think of much else to say for now. I'd like to post an update of my new eating changes and fitness goals at a future time.
I have been journaling my whole life, off and on, even though I threw away most of my journals from when I was married because it was becoming so bitter. I have always loved to write, and in 1994 when I got saved I started journaling again and have stuck with it, though it has been sporadic at times. Then I started blogging in 2006 on Myspace, then Facebook, and 2008 or 2009 on blogger. I have struggled with feeling like I was a failure at writing because I wasn't consistent, but still I am drawn to it. This year, I am determined to write at least once a week. So far I have. My main problem was I didn't have an encouraging word or a revelation from God very often, so I felt like I didn't have anything to say. What I have discovered is, we as writers were born to write. So now, I just write. If it's encouraging, great. If it's just a vent, that's ok, too.
ReplyDeleteSo just write. I'll read it, and I'll bet a lot of others will, too. :)